Just a warning that this post gets a little mushy - so if you aren't in the mood I would check back later. : )
Well, Jake has been gone for one week now. It's one of those times that one minute I think about it and it seems like he just left, and another time it seems that he has been gone for a long time already. Still not sure which is better. Every time he is gone I am reminded of just how lucky I am to have him in my life and how I probably don't tell him enough how much I appreciate all he does for me. It's the little things that remind me, like when I had to take out the trash and recycling and thought to myself "I can't remember the last time I had to do this". Or when I come home from work and there is no one here to ask how my day was. Normally I would tell him about a funny thing someone said or did, or how crazy it was trying to get everything ready for our board of directors visit next week. When he is gone I usually try to keep a running list of things to tell him about if/when I do get to talk to him. But thinking about it now, the funny thing that was said would loose its charm by the time we got to talk and would require a whole back story to go with it. Our time is limited when connecting via satellite phone and in the moment all I really want to do is know that he is ok out on that island and tell him that I love him. Nothing else really seems to matter. The weekends are the hardest. During the week I have work, gym, dinner, dishes to fill my day. All I have left is an hour or so to check the news and read before going to bed. The weekend though is two whole days and my only must-dos are workout, laundry and grocery shopping, certainly not 48 hours worth of activities. I am thankful for my mom and sister who are planning visits this month to keep me company. And I am sure Jake appreciates this too, as my alternate activity is usually shopping!
At the end of the day I am grateful that he is only gone for a few weeks at a time and those kind of trips have become more the exception that the rule. I think of the military wife's whose husbands who are gone for months/years at a time facing a whole different kind of "invasive species" and know that I could have it much worse.They say distance makes the heart grow fonder... I would say this is true, but with that distance also comes a bit of sadness.
Now, don't get me wrong, it is not all bad. I do enjoy my alone time as well. Eating a bowl of cereal for dinner (only occasionally, I swear!), staying at the gym a little longer cause there is no hurry to get home, having half as much laundry to do. As with most things in life, there are pros and cons, and really I am a little jealous that he has been able to see so many neat places that the majority of people never get to experience.
One week down, five and a half to go. I know I can do it and when I do, my reward will be a fun-filled vacation with the love of my life. See you soon Jacob!